Bi Polar Disorder.

If im to be completly honest with you. I don't know why i have even made a blog . I will give it a try .

Today my entry is'nt going to be very cheerful seeing as i am Bi polar and right now im at a low of all possible lows. I cannot understand why i have this sudden feeling of emptyness , Ive just found a job , i've had an amazing weekend and hopefully another amazing weekend on its way.
Theres a sense that everything is wrong . After the great times i've had in my life i have always felt this way . Maybe theres something more out there? Or perhaps im just destined to be manicly depressed and feel like the outsider of the group in every single situation. Theres a voice inside my head telling me that everybody is laughing at me and that everything would be better if i just was'nt here . I know this might all sound stupid to whoever may be reading this , and to tell you the truth it sounds pretty stupid to me becuase i know that normally im not like this.
But i can't seem to shake this feeling.

Thats enough ranting about nothing for now.

:)